Now that I know the reason it's quite upsetting because you don't see the happiness in me. I'm not someone whom you are happy to be with. Being with me and loving me is not the happiness that you see. Happiness comes from spending time with your friends and dance. For me who have been the one who loves you and happiness comes from just being with you. But you look on the other side which is quite sad to hear. Sometimes I wonder why you fall for me and it was a mistake to have chose me. It was also a mistake for me to accept you back when the first time you broke up with me. If I know this would happen I shouldn't have welcome you back in my life because the life I live you destroyed it. Many don't know the secrets we share. But let me tell you the secrets we both share is the hardest thing to forget or living my life. Maybe to you happiness is the one in search but now happiness in my life you damaged it. Forgetting you is the simplest thing but forgetting our secrets is the most difficult part of my life. Even if I did or did not showed up your purpose right now won't change. Once you did said about patching things up but another you were confuse about your feelings. Let me tell you if you love me, you'll find happiness just to know that I'm yours. But otherwise you don't, happiness is quite similar to freedom. Being free to do things you want without having to know you have someone else.

He's not perfect. You aren't either.
The two of you will never be perfect
but if he can make you laugh at least once,
cause you to think twice,
and admits to being human and making mistakes,
hold onto him and give him the most you can.
He is not going to quote poetry,
he's not going to be thinking about you every moment
but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.
Don't hurt him, don't change him..
don't expect more than he can give.
Try not to over-analyze..
smile when he makes you happy,
yell when he makes you mad and
miss him when he's not there <3

believe me when i say this ;;
i love you
but i don`t know you
you`re pretty much my everything
& you're always on my mind --
when i wake up, when i go to sleep.
--it`s you i think of through the day
forgive me for staring
& getting jelous, for seeing you with other girls
it was all in my head
__ i swear i saw you looking once,
that changed my whole outlook on life
everything was good
& i was always happy
but how can i like you ..
when you don`t even give me a second thought
i know i never pass your mind
but give it a shot
this could turn into something beautiful.

you can't describe the feeling to anyone, not even
your best friends. 'cause the rush that you get when
you're with him, it's more than anyone can explain

touchdown, turnaround
i never see you around
anywhere or anymore
you are what i`m looking for
touchdown turnaround ..
everything is safe & sound
everywhere & anytime
i am yours & you are mine _ _<3.

when you think about him, you feel like your on clouds
when he gets online your tummy gets that feeling and
your heart beats ten times faster when you see him
&& you smile without even knowing it
that means theres something that wont let you give up..

maybe one day you'll notice me, but for now i'll just blend in with the walls just holding my breath when you walk by

isn't it fun?
realizing you love someone.
it just hits you one day..
all of a sudden.
they're all you think about.
& when you're thinking about them you either have a smile on your face,
or tears running down your cheeks.
you can't eat, you can't sleep, you just lay there & think about them.
you don't want to go out anywhere, unless you know they're going to be there.
& once you're there, you don't want to be anywhere else.
& than all your friends, & your family ask you if you're okay..
cus you just seem so out of it. & they wonder why you've been spending some much time in your room,
just laying there...

there's a difference between love and like, wrong and right. never run if you're not ready to step, and never forgive if you're not ready to forget 

some things are meant to happen. some things are bound to be. love has a way of making doubting hearts believe. sometimes in spite of difference, sometimes against all odds, some things are meant to happen. it's written in the stars.

Sometimes, I catch myself wondering where you are and how you're doing. I don't think I'm ever going to let you go completely

it's a lesson in simplicity,
and i've spelled it out specifically.
the rest is up to you.
and it seriously bothers me
that you may just not ever see
the way i feel about you

Through all the lies, the sad goodbyes
The things we hide, the tears we've cried
Through odds & ends, we've been best friends,
Though times have passed, the memories last

then there's that one moment.. the moment when you've figured out
just how much you've really let go, how much you've grown. It takes
you back a step makes you think. It's that moment when you can't
look back yet you can't seem to look too far into the future. It's
the moment you realize you're living for yourself & no one else. Never
let go of that moment

new chapter, brighter future, NO regrets...

Time flies so fast that the next thing I know is, we've come to an end of the preparatory course. How I wish I get to know more people. It's sad to be apart with the friends I've bond and the laughter we've shared, has to stop. But however, we'll still see each other in school.

The NCT REVOLUTION CONCERT was fantastic and spectacular! I get to know a few people here and there. I also gets to talk to my crush, like OMG! He is definitely making me go crazy over him. Well it's just a crush right? Whenever he gets near, my heart beats fast and I can't stop smilling. He have a really lovely name. OOPS! my bad I can't tell you his name because if not it won't be a secret anymore. Seriously, I couldn't stand by just admiring him from far, that I have to make a move by asking him, "what's your name", when obviously at the back of his jersey was hugely written his name on it. Such a cute, cute and cute guy..

CLASS B I'll miss y'all, hope you guys have a great holidays and takecare always. If you see me in school don't forget to say "HI!"